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The Roots of Fear
William Douglas, a prominent legal figure and advocate for individual rights, was born in Maine, Minnesota. His lifelong struggle with a fear of water was shaped by early childhood trauma and the constant, cautionary warnings of his mother regarding the dangers of the natural world.
The author's aversion to water originated when he was just three or four years old during a trip to a California beach. While standing in the surf with his father, a powerful wave knocked him down and swept over him. Although his father laughed, the young Douglas felt a deep terror as he was buried in the water and lost his breath, marking his first psychological scar.
Years later, at age ten or eleven, he decided to learn to swim. The choice of location was deliberate: his mother continually warned him against the Yakima River, keeping fresh in his mind the details of every drowning incident there. Consequently, he chose the Y.M.C.A. pool in Yakima, which offered a controlled environment with a gradual drop from two feet at the shallow end to nine feet at the deep end.
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The Y.M.C.A. Misadventure
Just as Douglas was beginning to feel comfortable in the water, a traumatic incident occurred that turned his mild aversion into a paralyzing phobia.
One day, Douglas arrived at the pool early and sat alone on the edge, waiting for others. A 'big bruiser' of a boy, about eighteen years old, picked him up and tossed him into the deep end as a prank. Douglas landed in a sitting position and immediately sank to the bottom.
Despite his terror, Douglas remained rational enough to plan a survival strategy. He decided that when his feet hit the bottom, he would make a big jump, spring to the surface, lie flat, and paddle to the edge. However, the nine-foot depth felt like ninety, and his lungs were ready to burst before he even reached the floor of the pool.
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A Descent into Terror
The author provides a vivid, sensory description of the experience of drowning, highlighting the transition from panic to physical paralysis.
When Douglas finally hit the bottom and jumped, he did not 'bob like a cork' as he had hoped. Instead, he rose slowly, seeing only dirty yellow water. He grew panicky, reaching for a rope but finding only water. He tried to scream, but no sound came out. His eyes and nose briefly broke the surface, but he soon began to sink again.
During his second descent, his lungs ached and his head throbbed. He felt dizzy but tried the strategy again. This time, the terror became 'stark' and uncontrollable. He describes it as a force like a great charge of electricity that paralyzed his limbs. His screams were frozen in his throat, and only the pounding of his heart reminded him he was alive.
The Cycle of the Near-Drowning Experience
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The Toss
Douglas is thrown into the 9-foot deep end by an older boy.
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First Descent
He sinks in a sitting position, planning a jump from the bottom.
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Failed Spring
He jumps but rises slowly; he chokes on water and begins to sink again.
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Second Descent
Physical pain sets in; lungs ache and limbs become paralyzed with terror.
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Third Descent
Effort ceases as he stops struggling and loses consciousness.
The sequence of events during Douglas's near-fatal experience at the Y.M.C.A. pool.
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Oblivion and the Lingering Handicap
The struggle eventually ended not with a rescue he could remember, but with a total surrender to unconsciousness.
During his third descent, Douglas stopped struggling. A 'blackness' swept over his brain, wiping out fear and panic. He felt a peaceful drowsiness, as if he were being carried in 'tender arms like Mother's.' He describes this transition as crossing to 'oblivion' where the 'curtain of life fell.'
He woke up lying by the pool, vomiting. The boy who threw him in claimed he was 'only fooling.' While the physical recovery took hours, the psychological damage lasted for years. The 'haunting fear' made his knees wobbly and his stomach sick. He avoided water for years, which ruined his joys of fishing, canoeing, and boating in the Cascades and other regions.
| Aspect | Immediate Aftermath | Long-term Impact |
|---|---|---|
| Physical | Weakness, trembling, and vomiting. | Wobbly knees and stomach upset during exertion. |
| Emotional | Crying and inability to eat. | A 'haunting fear' and 'icy horror' in the heart. |
| Social/Leisure | Avoidance of the pool. | Loss of joy in fishing, boating, and canoeing. |
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Building a Swimmer Piece by Piece
Determined to reclaim his life, Douglas hired a professional instructor in October. The process was slow, methodical, and focused on desensitization.
The instructor used a unique safety system: a belt around Douglas's waist attached to a rope, which ran through a pulley on an overhead cable. This allowed Douglas to practice going back and forth across the pool while the instructor held the rope. For three months, Douglas felt a 'bit of the panic' every time the instructor relaxed the rope, but he persisted.
The training was broken down into specific skills. First, he learned to exhale under water and inhale by raising his nose. Next, he practiced kicking at the side of the pool for weeks until his rigid legs finally relaxed. The instructor 'built a swimmer' by perfecting these individual components before integrating them into a complete stroke.
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October: Hires an instructor and begins practicing five days a week.
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Safety Phase: Uses a belt and pulley system to move across the pool for three months.
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Breathing Phase: Learns to exhale under water and inhale above it, repeating hundreds of times.
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Leg Work: Practices kicking at the side of the pool until leg paralysis is overcome.
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Integration: Combines breathing, kicking, and strokes into a 'crawl stroke.'
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April: The instructor declares the training complete.
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Testing the Will
Even after the instructor was finished, Douglas was not satisfied. He knew that 'vestiges' of the old terror might return when he was alone, requiring further self-imposed challenges in the wild.
To ensure his victory was complete, Douglas performed a series of solo tests. He swam lengths of the pool alone, talking back to the 'Mr. Terror' that tried to scare him. He then moved to open water, swimming two miles across Lake Wentworth in New Hampshire. When he put his face down in the middle of the lake and saw 'bottomless water,' the old sensation returned in miniature, but he laughed it off.
His final triumph occurred in the Cascades. After hiking up the Tieton to Conrad Meadows and the Conrad Creek Trail to Meade Glacier, he camped by Warm Lake. He dived in and swam to the other shore and back, shouting with joy as the echo returned from Gilbert Peak. He had finally 'brushed aside fear.' This journey taught him that there is peace in death, but terror only in the fear of death itself.
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